[Magclin]

Somehow I have to get that back. Material things have no meaning. I can’t seem to find the joy I once had. My home, my land, my hobbies (no interest). My wife, my children, and my next gambling trip are the things I used enjoy most. I’ve missed many family gatherings… Lying. I look at other fathers/husbands and I feel like such a looser compared to them. Shit… I’m wallowing in self pity again.