Those sausages sound great!
Hampstead was an old stomping ground of mine. The Bull & Bush, The Hare & Hounds which was next door, but no longer there and Jack Straws Castle which has also been redeveloped and was a health club when I last saw it.
Things really aren’t as bad as they seem to you at the moment. You will feel at times that you are trapped with absolutely no way out of a situation that seems impossible, but I can assure you there are ways out of the deepest, darkest places.
Don’t beat yourself up for not being able to see a way out of your predicament, you wont be able to without time and help, that is why I urge you to focus on your family and staying gambling free day by day. In the whole scheme of things and at this present time, nothing else matters. You’ll be able to deal with everything else when the time is right and when you are stronger and more able to see things clearer. It’s all about prioritising and salvaging your family life, material things don’t matter.
Just focus on having a better day today than you had yesterday and do the same tomorrow. I’ll say it again, it’s all about keeping it simple.
Have a good one mate,
Charlster