Adding up 10 days to the total gambling free days. 2 and a half months now. Today feel rather depressed, it’s always the case when off work. I have some extra work to do and the bit where I don’t like what I am doing is really kicking in so I am just not doing it which is killing me even more. I hate my job and career. I don’t have a feeling I am doing anything meaningful, and I came to an extra realisation gambling is a resource where I can grab in to forget about that fact.