Your comment made me smile. I’ve also looked at old threads from years ago and wondered what has happened to those people who no longer post. Are they in despair still gambling? Are they happy somewhere with their gamble free lives? Are they busy posting on another site – or have moved on into counselling or some other form of recovery?
I like to think they are all enjoying gamble free lives – as I am. I hope I am right.
The other day I came across a journal (in book form) I was keeping from my gambling days. It made dismal reading. Not just the pain caused when gambling, but the hiding what was going on from friends and work colleagues (I have no family.) The pleading with a higher power that today was my last bet – only to see that I am at it again a few pages later.
I wish I could find the entry when I did indeed have my last bet as I can’t celebrate a “so many years gamble free” date as I didn’t make a note of it. It would also be useful to see what made that bet the last one. What made the difference.
I can’t say that life has been easy – especially with all the debt that I had to repay. It is only recently that I have managed to free myself from that burden. Life is really good without gambling in it – I would never go back.
Thanks for reminding me of all this and I hope things go well for you and your family.