Hi Caroline
How are you doing? I’ve been reading your posts and as with many f&f completely understand how you feel and that immense feeling of frustration. Maybe things have calmed down and maybe they haven’t but I just wanted to reiterate believe in yourself. Your instincts are right but the addiction confuses you . I can only speak from my experience but I did not realise I had lost so much self confidence. I just always felt a feeling of unease. The more support you can gain with the day to day things in life the stronger you will feel.
I used to tie myself in knots thinking what I should say or not say to my CG. I have only recently understood that in a way that is irrelevant as its you you and your children that must come first. You have probably spent so much time on your husband you had forgotten that. You are getting stronger. You know you don’t want to continue as you are. You will also work out what to do when you are ready to do it. As you say it just takes time.
Take care caroline I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and your children.
M