[neva]

I’m insane.  I know I don’t want to gamble.  I’m sitting in my sanctuary (home) drinking coffee and enjoying my life…yet, escaping to the casino keeps popping up.  My husband gave me cash again, even though I keep asking him to deposit in our account.  My world here at home is peaceful and comfortable–so much different than the casino world so why do those ‘thoughts’ keep popping up?  It’s not even noon yet and I’ve got so much done but I’m not content to just enjoy it. Finally a weekend with no company, not a houseful to **** for or clean up after but I can’t sit back and relax. This is crazy!