Hey girl–good job getting through the weekend gamble free!
Cannot say I did as well..That warning I voiced on here re my day off..I went to the casino…did damage of course..I have to keep busy and since the breakup with my boyfriend and loss of some longtime friends (I am sure from the gambling), I don’t have enough of a social life..Now my son moved out of town..I have isolated myself I know and am not taking the steps to do anything about it..
Since I went, I have just been working my a** off to try to recoupe, pay off more of my debt which I just made larger…I don’t really know what to say about it..Do I really need to numb myself that much from the life that I lead? I have been back to work and have hardly thought about gambling..Just disgusted with it and with myself.I love that I am not thinking about it, but I know it will not last.. Leaving Wednesday for New York to vist with my family there.I think I am dreading the trip that should really be happy one and instead…it was another gambling trigger..
Planning on starting back on the cleanse tomorrow in some modified form..I have lost 3 pounds even though I am eating again..but will still look like a blimp next to my 5’10" size 6 sister-in-law..lol .
I am sorry to come on here and admit to all this..was thinking I should just lay low til I can get some substantial clean time..I need to make that my life’s priority which I just have not done and am not sure I am willing to do.
I hope to take some inspiration from your cleanout job..just translate that to these **** lighthouses all over my living room….! I have sold a bunch but it sure doesn’t look like it! 🙂
