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Im tired at the moment,
Im tired of trying to work out what is going on with my husband.  We are on week 4 of horrific mood swings, tantrums, tiptoeing around the house, holding my breath when anyone comes over in case he is not happy.
Im wondering when i get my happy?  My peace?  It seems that right now peace is just a word to me.  I dont know what it means.  I fear that i will never know. 
Before anyone asks…yes, i have tried to talk to him.  I am being a drama queen, im trying to have a D&M…for gods sake.  I started laughing in the kitchen tonight after that one.  We barely speak, unless it is something he wants to say…a D&M?  What an absolute joke.  He asked me what i was laughing at.  I said ‘us’.  Because it is so pathetic it is laughable.  Ive never felt so unhappy as i do right now.  I dont know what to do.  He wont speak to me, unless its fishing or football.  Was it always this way and i never noticed because i was gambling?   No wonder i gambled, who wants to live like i do…..not me.
Kathryn xxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan