You’re trying to convince your logical side to take over…. There’s nothing wrong in having negative thoughts, there’s nothing wrong in having urges… for many years this is how you’ve lived your life it’s not going to suddenly change, you have to work on them, and you are… only you can be honest about how far you’ve come, we can only sit and watch, but from my seat and in my opinion your doing so well
In my opinion your logical side is really starting to work, would you have admitted these feelings whilst gambling or would you have just ignored the feelings and acted on the urges.
Your learning how to deal with issues in a different way, your doing great… don’t ignore them, accept them for what they are “Unusual Feelings”
An urge or a negative emotion isn’t a problem, unless you act on them in a negative way.
H"Occasionally its wise to doubt our doubts, to question our questions, and to re-think our thoughts."