Thankyou for you post. ive just been catching up on yours and i am impressed at how well you are doing on the gambling front despite all that your personal life is throwing at you. this emotional stress can be such a major trigger to make you gamble yet you are still staying strong. i hope the test turns out the way you want. i will say this tho. you cant change the result tho you can choose not to gamble. that way day by day you will grow stronger and more able to cope with everything life throws your way.
Kind regards Dave