I am going to sound CRAZY. Yes all is well in my life after the big drama. But i have been quite cranky since it all ended. I have been trying to work out why and i think i know what it is.
As horrendous as the whole situation was, and you all know how hard it was for me to get a grip on it, i actually think that it was the closest thing i have had to a gambling ‘buzz’ for a long time. All the drama, tears, meltdowns were actually feeding my adrenalin, it was racing through my body every 10 minutes and now…
I think i have a gambling hangover without gambling.
Do you think thats possible? You know the feeling of walking into a venue to gamble, well i was getting that feeling every time i thought of what ‘may’ happen, it was a rush, an awful one but a rush just the same.
Now its all over, and dont get me wrong, i am soooooo happy with the results, i feel really flat, tired, lethargic. I dont quite know how to snap out of it. My mind has gone from everything to nothing in one milisecond, the second i read the result. Its the wierdest thing.
Anyway, any thoughts would be appreciated,
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxFighting the good fight…One day at a time