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paul315
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Originally posted by kathryn in her topic,  BELIEVE (new thread) 

I wasnt going to write this post, but i feel it is important …

I wasn’t going to write this post, but I feel it is important, Kathryn started a post with these words to tell of an uncomfortable situation she experienced; I as using the same beginning to tell of a similar one.
This week-end I made a short trip to see Merle Haggard, and American Country singer – an Icon, in Tunica Mississippi. Tunica is basically a casino resort area and the concert was being held in one of the casinos auditorium. I rented a car, bought a concert ticket, and made reservations at the hotel in the same casino. The room and dinner were a free offer for my birthday; part of the player benefits I had earned (accumulated through my vast losses) from my past years of gambling at this chain of casinos. 
I planed my trip so I would get there around 5 o’clock, have time to freshen up, have dinner, and then go to the concert, back to my room and home he nest morning; an evening all planed out. Then one of lives unexpected changes happened, Merle cancelled the concert due to illness. I was left with an evening empty of plans. There was still dinner, but when I went down to the buffet there was a long line the winded around the slot machine area. Here is where the discomfort started. I was use to going to the bus stop at a casino here, and even to a buffet in casino hotels; but these places are separate from the gambling areas. Here I was to have to wait in line near the slot machines; I could not do it, I had to leave and return to my room. It was the first time in months that a real urge to gamble took over.
I guess you can say I ran to my room to hide; or I was "sent to my room without supper" like a bad boy.  Thankfully I had my laptop with me and logged on to a GA site and read over some of their pamphlets and guidelines. Then I logged on to the open chat here at GT and chatted the evening away with Betty.  Thanks again Betty.
Because something unforeseen happened I was left with my barriers confermized; I had extra cash on hand, I had a night out without definite plans, and I was away from home out of my comfort zone. I realized that I still have a long way to go in my recovery, that caution has to be a constant companion.
So what was to be an enjoyable time turned out to be a stressful one; but also turned out to be a beneficial virtual type GA meeting, one with a extra long commute.  I will be happy to attend the real one a couple blocks away tomorrow night.
God’s speed to all. Stay strong.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.