Your honesty and openess about this addiction and your dealings with it makes for a very interesting read, i do really enjoy it. I think we all have our own way to deal with compulsive gambling and i for one believe that whatever works…do it. We are all different, and have our own ways of coping, i for one, do not attend GA, not because i am embaressed, i have been to several meetings but have found that the GA way is not for me. I really admire people, one being my sister, who live by the 12 steps and i have seen it work with my own eyes. Personally, for me, it is not something i have delved into, i am making my own way, as are you.
I think we all benefit from each other here, i dont think i would have ever self excluded if not for this site, i hadnt thought too much about it before coming here, although i did attend gambling counselling a few years ago and when it was mentioned i freaked out. Not ready? I think so.
I am glad you have spilled your ‘secrets’. I dont think you should feel the need to withhold anything here, i take what i need from each post and move on. You are moving forward Larry, and if you can go into a casino without gambling, well, more power to you. I know i could not do that, but then, i am not you! I have had your feeling of doing this too easily, but in reality i think it shows the readiness to change, the willingness to accept what we are and deal with it. I know for me i had simply had enough and i was more than ready to give gambling the flick. Take me back 2 years ago and there would be no way. In saying that, my guard is constantly up, and i like it that way. Im not going back, and from reading your posts, neither are you. Well done.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xx
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