Thanks (((Cat))) for your kind supportive post. You don’t strike me as someone who wouldn’t hear the alarm clock. I didn’t need to get up this morning with the alarm clock as my course is rescheduled for August 31st and September 1st. This might surprise some of you but I am going to attend GA meetings on Thursday evenings. These meetings are discussion step meetings of steps 1, 2, and 3. The format is different from regular GA meetings. I know that I need structure and support really bad in my life right now, due to all the changes I have made. So now I have my Monday evenings with my granddaughter and yoga, Tuesday evenings with my recovery support group, and Thursday evenings with GA. I plan to join Weight Watchers in September. Today Danny brings me Ruffuss overnight, and tomorrow after my friend’s medical tests, I am travelling back to the country to look after the renters’ house. I committed to doing that if the need was there, till the end of August. Danny is paying my bills till I find a job so I am cooperating by helping him with the house when he is away working this month. Ruffuss goes to his new family on August 23th, which I’m trying not to think about. My cat Ferris comes to live with me at the end of this month, and Ferris will think he won the lottery being here with me. (((Cat)))- you said I have come a long way but I don’t feel that. It’s hard to remember how emotionally ill I was prior to recovery and the anxiety I suffered at the beginning of recovery. And everything in between! It’s still hard for me to believe that I left my 19 year relationship with Danny. I would/could not have done that if I was as emotionally ill as I was. I don’t cope as well anymore being older. The last part of my jigsaw puzzle will be finding a job and getting up for it 5 days a week. I used to wonder where I’d be living; now I’m wondering where I’ll be working. All in good time!! Carole
