My Dear Ell,
I am so glad you posted today. I am a little more comfortable posting on other’s threads now, so I want to tell you something because It is important to me that you know this:
Yours was the first thread I read when I discovered this sight on 5/1/13, and it was because livsg123 had mistakenly posted her first cry for help on your thread that day – so you were at the top of the list. I call that a "God Thing". Have you ever heard that term? (I hope livsg123 gets her post moved to F&F, or starts her own thread, and I hope she comes back soon.)
Upon arriving here at this website that night I was in a very sad place in my heart: I’d had a very rough day (rough month really), and I was skeptical that anything could help.
I had other matters demanding my attention that night, and I might not have even spent much time here but for two things:
1) I was desperate and feeling frantic to find some answers.
And … what glued me to the screen …
2) your truly amazing ability to express your thoughts and emotions about your experiences so clearly and eloquently.
Ell – in my dire emotional state that night it almost felt as though I was reading about ME. You were telling what, in so many ways, felt like MY story, but you were speaking with a clarity and insight that I do not possess.
This is not meant to take anything away from your story, because it is yours alone – not mine. But so many of the things you said over the months hit so close to my home that you have unknowingly (until now) landed in a special place in my heart. (ha – that’s my first time to use one of those thingys)
I have drawn a great deal of strength, courage and hope from your posts – and the gentle but ever wise guidance given to you (and all of us) by our dear Velvet.
So, I just wanted you to know that YOU have made a difference in my life. (these things are cool!) I hope you are smiling too…
"… should I give up or should I just keep trying to run after you when there's nothing there?" Adele