Adele my Motto is, "Take life day at a time." I need to read and re-read all the advice on this forum. Please hang in there with me. I had a conversation with my husband today. I asked if he thought he was a compulsive gambler, and he answered yes. I asked if he wanted to change, and he said yes. I asked if that meant forever, and he answered no. He still thinks he can control it. I then asked him do you think that a recovering ********* or **** addict could still drink and do ****s. He said no, but the difference is that’s a chemical dependency. I don’t think he’s ready to quit. I think he still thinks he can control it.
I asked him if he thinks a separation would be a good idea. I thinks that I just want an excuse to leave. I told him I want to give him some space to think about what he really wants in life. He doesn’t think he ***** that. I have to admit I have threatened to leave him before. There are ***** when I think just walking away would be easier. I do love him. I just feel like we don’t have anything in common anymore.
I’m emotionally and physically drained right now. I will keep coming here to vent and to get advice. I can only hope that with time get stronger and understand things better. I will try to take this journey one day at time.