Adele my Motto is, "Take life day at a time."  I need to read and re-read all the advice on this forum.  Please hang in there with me.  I had a conversation with my husband today.  I asked if he thought he was a compulsive gambler, and he answered yes.  I asked if he wanted to change, and he said yes.  I asked if that meant forever, and he answered no.  He still thinks he can control it.  I then asked him do you think that a recovering ********* or **** addict could still drink and do ****s.  He said no, but the difference is that’s a chemical dependency.  I don’t think he’s ready to quit.  I think he still thinks he can control it. 
 I asked him if he thinks a separation would be a good idea.  I thinks that I just want an excuse to leave.  I told him I want to give him some space to think about what he really wants in life.  He doesn’t think he ***** that.  I have to admit I have threatened to leave him before.  There are ***** when I think just walking away would be easier.  I do love him.  I just feel like we don’t have anything in common anymore.  
 I’m emotionally and physically drained right now.  I will keep coming here to vent and to get advice.  I can only hope that with time get stronger and understand things better.  I  will try to take this journey one day at time.