Hi Schew
Maybe your thread was brought to the top for a reason even though it was accidentally done.
You used to ‘lurk’ around the forum and I wonder if you still do so this is just to say I am still hear and ready to listen.
The addiction to gamble affects our lives – it is not just a passing phase – we are changed by the experience and therefore need support in the aftermath of the storm, as well as during it.  
If you are still lurking I would love to hear from you again.  
There comes a time, I think, when it is right that we grow wings and leave the forum. We get the knowledge of what it is that has hurt us and we work our way through that pain with that knowledge.   The hope must be that members realise that they are in control of their own lives and therefore the natural progressions is that they make their own decisions on the life they have reclaimed.   Maybe you have grown your wings but if you have not you will be welcome here.   There were many strings to your posts and I hope that you have tied up a lot of the loose ends but wherever you are in your journey you are not forgotten here.