Today was a better day. Work has been good, i enjoy going because i can totally focus on something else and i can earn a few dollars to put toward my debt. The debt will be long but all i can do is chip away at it each week and just transfer straight from my pay to the debt. That way it will happen and i just need to be patient and see that this is just how it is, this is the consequences of my actions. Today i caught up with a friend and tomorrow i am going out to do family stuff. I have meetings structured in my diary, i have counselling sessions and i am saying prayers every day for strength and the ability to change. I will change my life. I have started. I will look at the positives in my life. i will look at the things i do have to be thankful for. i will push through when i am feeling lazy and unmotivated and i will do my best to change the things i need to about myself. Its a big task but i have the rest of my life to work on it. I want the rest of my life to be good. Ive been through a lot from a young age. ive faced many demons. This gambling demon has tried its best to derail me from this life but now i have turned the tables and I am taking the train of recovery to a healthy and happy life.
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