Hi Pink,
Of course you didn’t ask for this life! Who would? But we love them (our CGs) don’t we?
When I’m sick, sick, sick of the rollercoaster, I go back and read my whole thread again. It buoys me up and reminds me of where I’m going.
Just don’t give up on yourself Pink. Remember – that’s what this is all about – taking care of you.
Read that #9 again on your list …  
You’re doing great! Velvet is right – you are feisty, and you can get through this.
 "… should I give up or should I just keep trying to run after you when there's nothing there?"  Adele on writing Chasing Pavements