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kathryn
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Hi Nitenurse and welcome.
You will get loads of support here…….
I am the compulsive gambler in my home, i have been gamble free for over 3 years now.  I can, however remember  when i first stopped.  One of my very first posts here was titled "day 3 and im angry"!!!!!
I dont know how long your husband has stopped gambling for, i do however remember that feeling of rage.  I wanted to gamble and i couldnt, the addiction in me was being starved.  I didnt realise that i was withdrawing, and that is exactly what it was.  Like a **** or alcohol addict, i was going through the same pain.
I felt a bit better knowing there was a reason for my anger, i had not been able to control it and i didnt know why it was happening.  I was a screaming banchee!!!!!
This addiction is horrific.  It sucks out your soul.  I got help.  I talked about it with the people here who were wonderful.  I see my addiction now as a scowling beast in the corner of my mind just waiting for an opportunity.  I refuse to feed it.  I refuse to give it an inch because i know it will take a mile, and then some.
Im not making excuses for your husband.  I just know what happened to me, it is a process.  It takes a long time for us to hit bottom and its no walk in the park to find the person we were before gambling entered our life. 
I hope your husband is getting help, he ***** to work through it and talking always helps even though we may not think so at the time……..
The same goes for you nitenurse, you have been living with this addiction too, as have your children.  You need support, you need to ensure your finances are safe.
There is hope.  There is light at the end of the tunnel, if he is prepared to be open to the possibilities and do the work required to manage this addiction.
I look forward to reading more from you,
Love K ****
To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan– 8/03/2013 10:48:31 AM: post edited by Kathryn.