Well Bettie,
I am not sure where I will go or what I will do now that I have banned. It is scary in many ways but it is more scary for me to think that I could continue. I was getting way to out of control and no matter how hard i tried i could not gamble normally. I think I just had enough when i realized I played the slots with the house payment This is unacceptable to me and i guess I can say today that that was my bottom. I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. That is why I did it. And ya know it wasnt that bad. I mean its only day 1 really and tomorrow I might be sorry for what I have done. I dont care. FOr today, it is a sense of freedom that I havent felt in oh so long. I want to feel this feeling instead of the way I was feeling.
Please be patient with yourself and the dream about bannin it can come true, I am looking forward to hearing you say you did it!this to shall pass
