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Each baby step and effort taken to walk away from old obsessive, impulsive, compulsive acting out counts. They do not happen overnight but each baby step, each day staying stop adds up and the level of obsession, impulsiveness and compulsiveness or urge loses its strength.

Doing the opposite only increases their strength and power over time until I lose all self control. This is life and death for me and I need to constantly keep myself in check.

The fog in my head is clearing, my feeling is slowly returning back to normal, the feeling of gratitude, contentment and the mindfulness that I am a part of something bigger than me help me find peace.

I survive by the mercy and grace of a power greater than me!