[Lydian90]

So I just succumbed to the urges. I don’t even know how much I lost I’m still on the shake come down part. It was over a thousand. That’s 3 grand in about 3 days now.

I just signed the self exclusion waiver in the casino. Fee slightly better about it. And feel sick and ashamed at the same time.

I don’t know why it takes so many times for me to screw up and not get the message.

By the end I was just doubling up again and again trying to win it all back and obviously lost it all.

Just want to cry now. I can never stop. I’m going to be dealing with this for the rest of my life.