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#49923
IRockVX
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My feelings and sensations of a deeper underlying sorrow in my heart … are growing recently. Kinda intense.

The feelings are intense and their numbing medicine isn’t been used … I feel like my heart wants to cry deeply … to push the great darkness away …

Can’t believe I’ve spent all these years with these feelings tucked down alone inside … stuffed away … seeped into the deepest part of heart body and brain …

And now it’s slowly starting to ooze out … the memories ache quite deep … but the depth of awe and inspiration from seeing how far things have come since the beginning …

I feel like my heart wants to cry but my eyes are stopped up … intense sadness … and deeper spaciousness pouring through … It’s like watching a demon leave my heart and stepping away from it …

That “I absolutely must have this trade” feeling that covered that darkness up … whew … i don’t even know what to say …

Emotional spikes high and low outside of gambling feel more vibrant but more directly connected to the world and people around me …

Feels like a place beyond words …