Hello 🙂
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nYesterday I jumped into a GA meeting, I entered the session a little late and it took me a bit of time that they were talking about the 12 steps, as I was not aware of the steps I did find it a little hard to track, but it was a good start. It also led me to look at the steps and my understanding is you can do the first 4 on your own but from step 4 onwards you need a sponsor, is that true? Also I have NO IDEA how to go about getting a sponsor, especially with everything being online at the moment.
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nLast night I didn’t sleep, everything reminds me of my partner and I just feel so heart broken and terrible for what I did to him. It makes me feel inhumane and sick and I wish I had defeated this thing a very long time ago. Let this be the rock bottom of all rock bottoms the final never again.
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nHad a chat with dad today and it went alright, he believes me when I told him I have deleted all access from betting apps and anything that have me a way to gamble online and that makes me feel good that one person believes me even though I deserve no one’s trust. Before deleting my account against a betting account today I considered placing a bet, I came so close and I told myself it only starts with one bet and it isn’t worth it, I was so proud of myself for not going through and deleting my access.
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nToday is day 4 and I look forward to day 4000 🙂
