Lorraine my friend, I dont know what to say but felt I had to reply to your pain……….when reading the last part of your post “Its okay God you can take me I’m ready” it brought tears to my eyes and thats the honest truth, how can things if life get that bad that we are ready to depart from the world willingly!!!
I have known you for a while Lorraine and you are a very good friend, life can be so very hard at times what with one thing and another and I know you have had more than your fair share of trouble, Lorraine this time my words of comfort I am sure will not be enough so I have searched long and hard, thinking how I can lift you my friend and I came up with this……….
When your day is long and the night
The night is yours alone
When you’re sure you’ve had enough of this life, well hang on
Don’t let yourself go
Everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it’s time to sing along
When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (hold on)
When you think you’ve had too much of this life, well hang on
Everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don’t throw your hand Oh, no
Don’t throw your hand
If you feel like you’re alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you’re on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you’ve had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes
So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
(Hold on, hold on)
Everybody hurts
You are not alone………………………I am your friend Lorraine so take comfort in me……………..
I also know God is a very good friend of mine although I do **** him off at times (not intentionally) and you know what…….I honestly believe when our time is up its up…..just for today God still wants you in this world and from what I can see quite rightly so………………
Everybody hurts sometimes………………………..
Stay strong Lorraine, dig deep and find just a little bit more…….I hate new years, always have, always will its just the way I am………..but tomorrow is a new year and who knows what it might hold for us……….all I can really say is I am glad that this year is nearly over and perhaps we can look forward to a new one………..after all it can’t be any worse…….can it…………..in truth life is what we make it, I have had a really rough year and thats putting the gambling to one side I just mean health wise and at times I have been so down, depressed, distraught, just before I went in for an operation in June I spoke to my wife and kids in a way that I might not ever see them again and that was a distinct possibility but in truth we can say that about everyday because we just never know what is going to happen to us or anyone.
Lorraine you are lovely person, a wonderful women, a very good friend and someone I have had the pleasure to share with for many years, you say it how it is and thats exactly how it should be said.
Always keep fighting and when you haven’t got the energy to fight then just rest……………while resting you are still fighting but just dont know it.
Happy new year Loraine and lets hope its a good one for us…….I have to be honest I have a good feeling.
If I could leave you now with a one liner it would be “listen to your heart and do whatever it tells you”
Take care my friend and will speak very soon.
Love from a true friend
Lee