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Iwillbeatthis
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Hi Charles, Thanks for taking the time to read my post and for the response, you shared some great options and I will take them to heart….Since the trip is already paid for, I will be going to Vegas, Believe me when I tell you this was one of the hardest decisions of my life and I have agonized over it. I was the last person to book the trip and I have gone back and forth over my decision for some time. I have already booked a show to see Celine Dion and another to see Mat Franco. As well, I have asked one relative that I trust to hold my money and credit cards for the entire trip and to only give me enough for meals, drinks etc. I have told her not to give me any more money, especially at night and after 10pm when everyone else is getting ready to wind down for the night as this is the time when I am most vulnerable. I have made plans to use the pool area during the day and I know my sister is planning the same so I will have company….if not I plan to rent a cabana and spend my money on the simple pleasures. So we will see how this goes. I’m kind of nervous but I also feel this is a good opportunity for me to show myself and my family how serious I am about recovery. In respect to being honest with my husband about our debts….In September I documented all of our finances and told him to take a look at them, I explained we had a lot of debt and yes some of it was from my gambling…he has never even bothered looking at the folder. He just said says “we spend too much” and I say “yes, we do and we have over spent for the last 25 years” See Charles, my husband has his own compulsions, he spent a great deal of time and money drinking so maybe he has his own feelings to deal with. I think he just wants to bury his head in the sand till I make it all better. In the end I have always made everything okay again….until now. Thanks for listening