I am glad you enjoyed the poem, I used to write a lot of poetry but that too has fallen by the wayside recently. I have had a lot of counselling with Breakeven which has now ended and I think that was the trigger that restarted my problems because I suddenly felt abandoned again which is something I have had to get used to over the years. I will get through Christmas somehow and wait for my place at Gordon Moody, until then life will be a struggle but I am going to stay on this forum and hope that with the help of people on here I can survive this current crisis. As for getting someone to take care of my funds I have tried that but always found a way round it to get the money either by deception or by lying my way out of it. I know that sounds awful but when the urges hit me I will do anything to gamble even though I know the consequences.
