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lizbeth4
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Thank you Vera for your post. It is good to know that I am in your thoughts and prayers. My Sister is in town visiting with my Mom and will be going home tomorrow. I was thinking about the last time she talked to me (it will be 1 year March 14th, 2 days after my Husband died), well actually she kicked me out of her car. She has her own demons to deal with and our relationship wasn’t healthy for a long time. I hope she finds her way to happiness. I needed a few days to unwind and de-stress myself anyways before I having any contact with my Mom. I think I am a little depressed about my Grandson and not being around him so much but I decided it was the best thing to do and it is a healthy thing to do. You are right Vera, everything changes and we have to change too even if it is painful. My Daughter will never be able to take her role as his Mother if I am always in the picture. I do overstep my boundaries sometimes and it is hard not to do so but it is very confusing for my Grandson. It time to let go but that doesn’t make it less painful. I know it will be okay so I will deal with it. Vera, I think it takes a special person to deal with sickness and death. My Husband died 2 months after his cancer diagnosis. Those were the longest 2 months as he struggled daily dealing with his body dying and shutting down. His actual death was fast but that was because we had a DNR and he was given massive amounts of morphine for his pain and he went to sleep and never woke up. It was the most humane and kindest thing that was done for him. I feel like I am coping well with everything but I do have times of great sadness. I just have to take things one day at a time. Right now I am trying to get healthy. I read somewhere where your health is your wealth. I went grocery shopping yesterday and chose healthier foods. I need to take time to focus on myself a little and make me the best I can be. I have a lot of living left to do and many adventures still to do. I wish everyone a great gamble free day!!