Hello All,
Here I am at day two. While I do agree with you, I am an addict without question, however, I believe my addiction made me a selfish person and it went beyond just gambling. Yes I would do selfish things to feed my addiction, but I would do selfish things in general just because. Having said that, I know I can’t control what happened in the past, I can only control the moment. As I move forward with my recovery, I’m a firm believer we must hit rock bottom before we make a change, and I believe I’ve hit that mark. I’ve hurt so many people over the years and I’ve put my family in a huge financial bind. I’m very close to losing my fiancé, as I have lost her trust. I’m very close to losing my kids because of my addiction. I don’t believe it can get much worse. Having said that, as I push forward, I can only go up. I know I can overcome this addiction. It won’t be hard, but it’s possible with support, a positive attitude and a drive to get my freedom and life back. Today I will not gamble.
Thanks for reading and please know i read a lot of your journals as we are all fighting the same battle. Have a great day all. Be great!!