Thanks for the support guys!
I added another post about my thoughts when betting. This was based on talking to my friend who finds it hard to understand gambling, as it’s not ‘rational’. I argue in my blog posting how I manage to rationalise my irrationality, so I think that I’m acting rationally in the heat of the moment!
If anyone wants to read it, it’s here: http://agamblersjourney.weebly.com/blog