Thanks Charles for your post! I am ashamed to say it but I gambled last night! The monetary loss wasn’t big but the emotional toll that I am feeling today is overwhelming! Why? I don’t know. I am sorting out everything in my mind. Obviously, I have some issues! Yesterday started out great. My Mom and I went to 2 holiday bazaars and I found 2 unusual Christmas gifts (handmade). We had lunch at a new place in town and I spent some time with my Mom at her home. My intentions were to come home and read or watch a movie. Instead I went to the casion and stayed 8 hours. I took $500 out of the ATM and blew it. I won serveral times and put that back into the machines. I didn’t leave until I had nothing left. I didn’t go back to the ATM. I did have enough sense to finally stop but I think that was only because I was tired. It is getting cold here and we are expecting some snow tomorrow. I have noticed that my disposition has changed a little since winter has settle in. I think the answer for me is to find some projects (crafts) to do to occupy my time!! I will be in the city for 4 days at the end of the week and than Thanksgiving will be here. Then I will decorate and get prepared for Christmas. I am going to kick myself for gambling for awhile. I am picking myself up and continuing on my journey.
