[I_Maverick]

Thanks Charlster. I am trying, I really am. But the sick feelings I have just won’t go away. I am finding it so hard to let go of my stupidity. I know this is something that many people on this site feel/ have felt. I just don’t understand why I have done this. Looking back there really was no other solution – I’ve been a mental and physical wreck for 3 years, ever since starting to play online. But why couldn’t I see it, how was I so blind? Why couldn’t I have been in this position last year, before we started the big project. How could I have not put blockers on years ago as I did want to stop, but I kept finding ways to play. And by god when I played I LOVED it, even this year. The rush etc. But the consequences are so great, so final.