thanks mate its been great hearing from you.
why do you still post in forums like these after being away from gambling for so long? do you consider gambling to be one of those things that can easily creep back up on you even after nearly a decade of stopping? i ask because that is a scary thought to me that I’ll be spending the rest of my life trying to stay away from this addiction. i went the first 20 years or so of my life looking at gamblers like “youre stupid if lose your money to gambling, how dumb can you be” but then later on found it was so much easier to fall into no matter how smart you consider yourself.
I had hopes I would fall back into the thoughts i originally had about gambling eventually but have a feeling its going to be a battle for the rest of my life. its a strange thing how gambling can change the way I think so abruptly and destroy my life in a single moment. do you still have moments of weakness or you know you are fine now? i look forward to the milestones of time as a non-gambler I can announce on these forums.
I play online games also and find myself gambling for ingame wealth on a certain game (which cannot translate to irl money) but its still to succeed through the game faster. would you consider this cheating? as i have not gambled since last week but I did do some in this online game i play which made me feel guilty like a gambler. i feel like I should reset my non gambling streak even though it wasnt for real money. Would you agree that it is still a form of gambling and should reset my counter? because i did also feel the heart rate go up like it would in real money gambling. i guess im answering my own question but would also like comfirmation.
thanks for your time steev