I am glad that I came here and posted yesterday as I did learn something, and that is even when I do have those tough emotional challenges that I am better to sit down and write about it and get it out of my system. I am feeling much better today, and I know what I am going to do to deal with it…. Life is a challenge at times, but that is life. Unfortunately, as much as we want the road to be smooth and perfect, that is not life. It is how we handle those bumps, challenges and emotional upsets that matter. My life is different now as my hubby is not drinking, but he is doing it on his own without any help. It makes me wonder if that is what you would call abstaining, rather than being in recovery. I would not have known the difference if I had not started recovery for compulsive gambling or gambling addiction.
I am still going to see a counsellor every few weeks, and it was interesting as she said that you can be a “dry drunk”. It really made me think and to see how things go. As far as I can tell he is doing okay with it. It has been 3 months since he last had a drink, not unless he is sneaking any, but I don’t think so as he knows health wise he cant drink.
Life is strange, as with everything that happened the other evening at the meeting at work, it made me decided that I am definitely retiring at the end of next year. I cant handle the stress like I did before. If I need money I will try and get a part-time or casual job, or if I need some social interaction.
I am slowly noticing a difference in my interest in our home again. I think since we did the basement and it looks good, just finishing touches to do, like the fun stuff pictures on the wall, ornaments to put out and other little things. It makes such a difference.
I have so much to be grateful for and I think that has to be my focus. I can focus too much on what I don’t have instead of being thankful for what I am blessed with. Wishing everyone a good gamble free day. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!! Let Go Let God.
