Mixed week, every time I have a day of feeling contentment something always seems to happen to throw it off which is annoying. I think it is called waiting for the other shoe to drop. The run up to Xmas is quite stressful. What is very annoying is when we buy online and await deliveries. This week found something just left outside the front door next to the busy road. How irresponsible, I also have to think about our light fingered neighbours too. This year I find myself less flush than last year because I chose stability over a large paycheck and took a reasonable drop in salary. I have spent a lot this year but have had a terrible holiday to the dr and 2 very nice short spa breaks in the U.K. right next to the sea. Both did me a lot of good, I feel happy with travels this year but have a holiday for my sister and I in mind next for 2021, very expensive. Involves the Venice simplon orient express. Despite my financial woes, as a result of gambling, I still keep my dreams alive.
I stopped the Ayurvedic medicine after one day as upset my stomach and had a full blown attack on the Wednesday that I have not had for many months. Couldn’t move from home and I guess was down to breaking my diet quite badly in birthday week. It was a setback, no doubt about that, lasted four hours and was intense.
The good thing about this week is the grandsons are here this weekend and are moving back to London from Scotland soon. My son sees it as the first stage in getting his life back. Three of my grandkids my son informs me r staying here from 20th through to 25th. That threw me into action mode. Omg, will need to do an Xmas dinner for the 24th before I head off to my sisters and my mums. That motivated me. This will now be my third Xmas since I have been on the gma site. I cannot help but give thanks for my life, despite its challenges. There was a time I never thought I would ever come out of recovery intact.
