[G Rec]

I joined today’s open group but it was just me, Charles had explained this was possible though due to open groups being unmoderated.
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nI am still glad I took the step of joining the group and as planned will join the new member’s group tomorrow and I look forward to it.
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nAs I have been continuing to work on my action items to help recovery, a couple of thoughts/questions have come to me that it would be really helpful to get other people’s thoughts/perspectives on.
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nListing Previous Bets/Losses
nIt has been suggested to me (outside the forum) to create a list of every bet that I placed during my recent relapse and I am torn on whether this is a good idea.
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On the one hand, I can see that it could serve as a reminder of how easily I can fall down the path of placing bets that add up significantly along with reinforcing that I was betting on completely random events, thus highlighting the problem more, both of which may help prevent future slip-ups.

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On the other hand, seeing all of the bets listed will cause me to relive the experience including all of the terrible feelings that came with them and could lead to feeling depression and stress, both of which are likely contributors to my gambling impulse in the first place.
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n Money Management
nSomething I have been doing now for 9 months is having someone else manage my main expenses. As soon as my wages arrive (excluding the past month where the slip up occurred), I send money to them to cover rent, bills, savings, and some general expenses while I keep enough for day to day living.
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nThis has worked extremely well (again excluding last month) allowing me to pay off my debts and save some money while still having some money myself for day-to-day expenses allowing me to maintain at least some money management/responsibility myself.
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nI am unsure however on longer-term, what the goal should be. Obviously, I am a long way off being confident that I can trust myself in managing all my finances but my question is should that be the end goal, that one day I feel confident enough to once again manage everything myself? or should I be viewing it as likely that I will need someone else to manage my main finances indefinitely.
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nI expect there is no definitive answer to either of these as they are unique to the individual but I think it would be very useful to hear the thoughts or experiences others have had regarding these.
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nThanks