I went to the bank today and applied for an arranged overdraft to tie me over until payday , i prayed to god to help me get it . I didn’t get it so i’m here again all emotionally wrecked inside . I’m not blaming god i believe in god i’m a christian and i know he doesn’t always answer our prayers. Iv’ e been far lower than this in my life and thought there was know way out so i know i will get through this . I have an appointment next month at the CNWL but having read one of charlsters posts i think i may have been put off it . I’m not sure what to do anymore . GMA looks a great place but how on earth do you get 12 weeks off work. ? I’m looking out the window right now . It’s dull and grey i can see a tree a sea gull and rain . M.