Today is being spent wrapping the last 2 gifts and straightening the house. My Daughter and Grandson will be here Wednesday afternoon and will stay for 4 days. I thought of my Husband this morning. He was like a child at Christmas time. He would put lights up outside our condo. Every year he would buy our Grandson a new train set. We would set it up in the living room and they would play with It for hours. Such fond memories! This is the third time that I have gotten through our birthdays and Thanksgiving without him. I just need to get through Christmas. It will be easier with family around me Next spring will be the third year anniversary of his death. I didn’t understand why I was having a hard time recently and was missing him so much. I started reading a self help book and it says that year’s 2-5 can be very hard. Many feelings resurface and that is normal. I will make it through and be okay. I am thankful for many things. Even though I gambled a few times this year, I have made a lot of process since I came to GT. My goal is no gambling in 2016!
