TommyBell5,
First of all thanks for sharing , this addiction can and will take everything from us if we let it, we have to try as always “one day at a time” to stay strong and get the better of our addiction, I have gambled for around 25 years although have been in recovery trying to better my life for the last 4 years, even now I still slip up from time to time but that is because I am weak and not trying hard enough, I am a compulsive gambler and when I gamble I cannot stop till everything is gone, the only way I win is by not placing that first bet.
keep sharing how you feel and never give in, you are not alone and there is help around the only way it works is if we want it.
Take care and wish you all the very best.
Maverick