Thank you for your messages of condolence re Diane. I did speak to Pete this week on the phone. I could tell he had been drinking and wasn’t alone, but under the circumstances who wouldn’t have a drink? He said Diane passed very peacefully, slept a lot during the week and woke up before she passed, gave one look to her husband and passed, surrounded by her family. It sounded like a peaceful way to transition. He is working a lot as summer time everyone wants their garden done or help with painting etc.
My week at work was difficult, not many weeks that aren’t.
Today I spent a lot of money in one day, a whole weeks wages and I wondered why I overspent. But, I spent some on delivered organic food, as the diet is still working, casserole dishes, a beautiful bath towel, a blender and as I do, a new handbag and purse. My last handbag is falling to pieces, having lasted three years, but when I buy a handbag I buy radley expensive. I also bought a purse as I have never carried one and I am fed up with rummaging round my bag for things. So all in all I overspent. And I know I overspent. Was it on unnecessary things? Not exactly, maybe one or two pieces I didn’t really need. I also felt urgey to spend money on a computer game, which is my gambling substitute, but didn’t.
On this diet I feel ok, no symptoms and I have got the kitchen stuff because the organic site I am on has many recipes so I will start to cook. It feels like I am going down a completely different path with Health and diet.
I also know I am avoiding ringing the revenue and must do that for an appointment, maybe my overspending has to do with that. At least I have the money to overspend for which I am grateful.
I forgot to cancel my Acupuncture appointment and they rang me. Quite pushy in fixing another one. I said I would ring them and apologised and this bothered me for at least a couple of hours, 1: because I forgot to cancel and I think I was just actually going into avoidance and 2) because they are so very psychologically pushy and this bothered me as well. I wanted to say that while it helped with a few things, cos it did, it never helped that much with my main health problem. Which was my stomach and colon. So why couldn’t I actually say it? I think that is what bothered me that I couldn’t say it. Hmmmm.
