Hi Crb
You need to start asking yourself some questions. Do i like how am i feeling? Do i wish to continue on this path of self destruction? I have been were you are many of times fighting kicking myself whenever i lost all my money, i feel your pain. Chasing after loses. Its really your mind raging war on yourself. Only you and you alone can stop this. Your mindset has to reset rewire and renew into discovering self worth. My mantra i use is: “Why Do Something Over & Over Expecting A Different Result?”. Crb you gonna move forward yes i know its difficult at first but you gotta stop and surround yourself with positive words and materials that will help uplift yourself each moment. Start by watching comedies feel good movies read a good book go for a walk siteseeing enjoy life. Give thanks for what you have. You can explore this website read people testimonies abt their struggles and how they have fought the good fight in getting back life together. Love life.pour words of affirmations. Read the proverbs from the bible if you got one*. Watch Soldiers of Self Mastery by Santos Rolon Jr.