Well sorry I’ve been a little missing in action lately. I wanted to share a quick update. Today is my 30th birthday, and it is sort of bittersweet for me. First off I am grateful that I made it to 30, as I have had far too many near death experiences but clearly I am here still for a reason. I remember when I stopped gambling after my last relapse I went to my calendar and said, If I stop now I will be around 2 months gamble free around my birthday, and here I am 68 days clean. Over one month sober from alcohol and substances also. Last week I lost a friend to a car accident and it made me realize how fragile life is esp after my dad just had his bypass surgery also. I also started counselling again last week which im proud of. It is a bittersweet birthday because I got the job I had been interviewing for, so January I start to make good $ again and pay off my debts, my dad is healthy again, I am mentally at peace in my sobriety, yet I still feel like there is something missing 🙁 maybe I miss my ex gf and wish things didn’t end the way they did, maybe I am lonely, maybe I am rewiring my brain , but one thing is for certain I will not give up and I will keep pushing forward. I am the author to my book of life and only I can write the ending of it. I hope all is well with everyone and you continue to fight for a gamble free life. All the best for 2020. Best wishes to all
