So yeah I thought I should update you guys on my progress.
I managed to stay away from gambling for a few days after this post but then I got back into it. Gambled for a week, I manage to plus another 5k usd but then I lost it. But I managed to hit the breaks and I’m still ahead by a lot even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment.
The betblocker apps and such didn’t do it for me, those apps are easy to bypass.
But I did something that Im really proud of. I opened up to my wife about my struggle. It’s one thing to do this when you’ve lost it all and dont have any other option, but I managed to do it while I’m still ahead and my life and finances are in order. It feels great Im telling you guys. I asked her to read up on gambling addiction to get a better understanding.
I also gave her total control of our finances because I dont trust myself at the moment.
After our conversation I have not felt the urge to gamble and I feel more connected to my wife than ever. You cant put a price on that.
So yeah I guess the key is connection and communication.
I feel really hopeful, I have a well paid job, my finances are healthy and I dont have to worry about gambling.
This is my Day 7 and I feel awesome.