I haven’t posted for quite a while. As it seems to be, one step forward, two back it seems. Have had a couple of gut attacks, one particularly bad and while carrying heavy shopping on Saturday, my back went,which it has done before and resolved after a few days but has persisted this time. I worked from home Monday and Tuesday but today gave up and went off sick. Could not get an nhs physio appointment till February so going privately today. I find this all somewhat depressing, a reminder of getting older and wonder how long I can carry on like this. So, all the Xmas Prep not been able to do and that is even more depressing. My bank balance is the lowest it has been since I returned to work, have spent a lot on Xmas.
On the positive, only because I copied my mp in, the revenue have made some movements. 17 18 is done, nothing owed. 18/19 probably will be around 4K owed. They have called off the hounds for corporation tax as realised my company shut down end financial year 2015. It has taken this long to make them stop. The 30k owed in corporation tax they have let go of. Truth is i gambled it all away at that time, but at least that appears to be finished. It has been hard dealing with all this. I have missed every Xmas do at work, three of them.
On the positive side, my granddaughter stayed and it was lovely to hear her say I love you after she left. We don’t see each other very often as she lives in Brighton but we have a nice connection.
Very depressing not being able to get the tree up and sorted or clear the room. My son can’t help much either, as he is working hard physically outdoors. As it is, he has cooked a couple of dinners when I haven’t been able to.
I just carry on and completely disregard my age but all of this is a reminder. I can’t afford to stop working and go back to square one. I have been surprised by how tired I am these past few days.
But we carry on and hope for a better day.
