Thank you for your kind words. You def are right about being there for my parents and also showing them the “me” they truly want to see, sober and abstinent from gambling , becoming happier and happier as the days go on without those demons. life Indeed is very precious and I want to really be present in my families lives without being totally consumed by substances and gambling. I have a clear mind for the first time in I can’t even remember. you are right about staying focused Because I have slipped around the 60 days mark a few times, but for some reason this time feels different, I don’t know how to explain it… before was always still kind of thinking/hoping/ by the grace of god I could recoup my losses with just one more “big win” … I saw it never came and I just made my debt deeper and deeper. This time I have finally accepted the money is gone. I think because I have a great job lined up For January and I am in my third step of the interview process… which gives me some hope that some decent paycheques will be coming in soon so I can watch that debt go down. I also dont obsess over money like I used to when I was gambling. I had that pipe dream of becoming a millionaire from that evil place that I won’t even mention, now after losing all of my finances and going into debt from that place I realize the only way to create financial success is through hard work, patience and time. And that time being gamble free time. I know you can do it too Vera and I am praying for you to beat this with me, every step of the way I will be there to encourage you and support you in any way I can, as you have done that for me time and time again during my 1 year horror binge. Thank you again Vera, it means a lot to me to have the support of good souls like yourself in my corner. Wishing you the best for this holiday season and a happy gsmble free New Years. As they say…
one day at a time.
god bless.