Welcome back Elder. I had not read your posts before as you joined before I did and when I joined and went through hell you were going through your own hell.
Well done on coming back and being so honest. Reading your posts frighten the life out of me because there but for the grace of God go I. I am on day 62 and I feel recovery starting to work. I went to GA last night (a new GA in my home town not London where I used to live as I no longer live in London due to my relationship falling apart because of my gambling and mental health issues and now back with my parents).
I found this site to be invaluable just to vent, who cares who reads it. The power of writing it gets it out of my head. I look forward to hearing more of your story and as you stop the madness that is gambling forever.