[Horsegirl]

What a lovely message thank you .  I’ve not heard from him ,but I found Out he is alive so there is that.  I’ve been feeling so rejected thru this whole relationship but today, I kind of had a revalation.  I prayed for him , for his health and for his wisdom to see he can end his suffering by getting help. I love him, but I am taking this silence as a sign that he is not capable of having a healthy relationship and he knows it.  Or maybe he is not interested anymore because I have begun to not enable him .  I don’t know…. still so many questions of why, but I will probably never know.