You are in the right place. Keep speaking on here and to your counsellor also is there any gamblers anonymous meetings you can attend where you live.
You have had the strength to quit drugs and your wife stayed with you for that. So stay strong take it a day at a time and try not to be too harsh on yourself. Hopefully you can repay your wife by starting a gamble free life and start to be a good role model for your grandchildren.
You can do this and keep us updated on here how you are getting on.
