Congrats mark you have made your first step in recognising this gambling addiction problem. You admitted the weakness and feeling of losing it all honesty. I applaud you man you got this to continue on this path of recovery. Lets focus on a new habit and new addiction a new hobby, and new activity to keep your mind away from gambling. I am on my 9th day free of gambling. My focus is on saving and investing the hard earn money that i made to secure a better life for my son. I was a roulette gambler for the past 5 years lost over 400k and i am now focusing on moving forward. Keep on journaling on this forum on your progress day by day. You gonna see your best life now free of this habit. I encourage you to keep a positive mind of your life. Knowing how destructive this habit is and the dark hole it can lead an individual to with mounted debts and the lies he/she may find them selves doing. My mantra i use to really keep away from those roulette machines is: ” Why Do Something Over & Over Expecting a Different Result” Keep this in mind and i urge you to discover your self worth and renew your mind to upliftment on this website and you can view videos on youtube by Soldiers of Self Mastery Santos Rolon Jr.
Thank you for sharing. We are here for you.be positive and stay positive always.